Aftermath

I’ve had enough. Begone, the evil ghost!

Stop haunting me, I know it’s all over.

I know that any hope is now lost.

I know this trail is leading me to nowhere.

I don’t know what it was that I did wrong.

I tried my best. I cared. I… surrendered.

I hoped it’d help, forefeeling was so strong.

It was for nothing. Loss by any standard.

Began with wonder. Ended with a nightmare.

My happiness has been ridiculously short.

I only could respond with quiet “Bye, then”.

What was the crime I’m being punished for?!

***

Since that, I’m desperately trying to forget.

I run through days in search of the oblivion.

But still I see around a ghost of what is dead,

Recalling times when dreams have still been living.

I can’t accept it. I just cannot let it go.

I still am in pursuit of hollow fruitless hope.

I have to stop it. How? I really do not know.

I simply feel I’m sliding down an endless slope.

I’m trying to collect myself, and I just fail.

Sad feelings overcome all my resistance.

I wish I managed to find some kind of way

To get me out of mournful, sorrowful existence.

***

I will forget my dreams. I will erase my hopes.

The shadows of the past will disappear.

I will find out the things that future holds.

It’s sad that when I’ll do, you won’t be here

To share it with me. You’ll go with someone else.

This is the fate that you have now chosen.

It’s done, forever. We will follow separate ways.

It is quite hard but I’ll concede. Life goes on

And has its fair share for each one.

That’s all. I’m free, and evil ghost is gone.

13.02.16